I spoke a little yesterday about wanting it when it comes to making changes, I mean really wanting it not wanting it but when you find out what you have to do to get it deciding you only sort of want it.
I like to have a good sit down, it's not laziness (it is) I just like to sit down before I do anything, I will get up in the morning... ok afternoon but lately it has been morning since I started this process, and I will have a sit down before doing anything else. Why I need this after a night laid down in bed I have no idea, sure if I sleep standing on my head or on a treadmill fine but I sleep like most people, laid down, mouth open, occasionally ruffling my hair (I can only assume I do that given the state of my hair when I get up)
I also like to have a sit down after I have been, well anywhere. I will just go to the bottom of the drive and when I come back in its time for a sit down, I blame the band James! This is inbuilt habitual and part of who I am and so I absolutely have to change this in order to achieve anything and that is down to how much I want it.
Another way of looking at how much you want something would be to say how much of the bad can you cope with to get the good, if I said I would give you £50 every day would you want it? probably yes but if I said that in order to get that £50 you have to let me slap you in the face with a wet and somewhat un-aromatic fish would you still want it, maybe yes, what if the catch was I get to kick you in the nuts every day (ladies would not worry too much about this) or I get to set fire to your face.
Of course I am being ridiculous there but the point being wanting it but then finding out there is something difficult to do to get there and not following through is what far too many people do. I need to see this off and deal with the hard stuff in order to get the victories in life. We all need to.
We also need to make sure that if we want it, then we want it for the duration of the process not just the 1st few weeks. I want to be a top comedian, nearly 3 years in I am not even close so should I give up now or keep going for another 6 or 7 years which is how long it will take, no wonder my girlfriend ran for the hills to find a guy with a proper job and less inclined to have a nice sit down.
You see when it comes to wanting it there is so much more than wanting the results, there is wanting it enough to know there needs to be sacrifices, I don't mean tie a virgin princess to a tree and wait for the giant 3 headed serpent to eat her or butcher a lamb at midnight on the sacrificial stone. I mean lose out on things in order to gain things. My ex used to say to me, which sacrifice do you want to make, a good body or good living. She meant do I want to sacrifice eating the things I love, pizza, choccy bars, Pizza, Curry, Pizza and of course Pizza, or do I want to eat those things and sacrifice being in decent shape... for years the easier option was to eat Pizza (I bloody love Pizza) now its on the sacrifice list. I am not instantly slim though, its all a journey.
Learning French, another of my goals requires sacrifice, I could spend today watching cricket with my dad, I love cricket I don't care what anyone else thinks of it! but instead I have ,my headset on, I am going through grammar in French and learning some basic words that are similar in French as they are in English with pronunciation changes, I can see India are 39-5 from my notifications.. damn it I am missing a brilliant bowling performance from England but needs must I can still check the score now and again much like I can still have the odd pizza.
I hope tomorrow to be able to string a sentence together in French..... soon.... soon I will be dating Audrey Tautou!!!
See you all tomorrow
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